0 Kommentare

Captain Hook

I am a lost boy from Neverland usually hanging out with Peter Pan, and when we’re bored we play in the woods always on the run from Captain Hook

Ruth B, Lost Boy

Watching Peter Pan as a child and finding him so cool because he could just do whatever he wanted to in Neverland was definitely not something I would have thought I’d reminisce about in the future. To be honest, I didn’t have an emotional bond towards that movie/story back then nor was it on the list of my favorite disney movies, I just thought Peter was cool, still I certainly didn’t understand why he didn’t want to grow up and why he was agaisnt adulting…well how would I? I probably was around eight or nine when I first watched the movie, but Neverland always sounded like a paradise where you’d have all the freedom you always wished for to me. Later on I couldn’t wait to finally be an adult, as for me, reaching the age of majority always seemed to be my kind of Neverland. Thinking that growing up would allow me to finally do whatever I want, wherever I want and whenever I want…thought attending adulthood would be the solution to all my childish worries. And I’m pretty sure that I don’t have to explain to you that I was…kiiiinda wrong with that thought, I asume that probably most of you experienced something similar by entering adulthood. However, none of us can escape it, one day or another time will force us to grow up.

Anyways…once again that was quite a rough introduction (sorry for that) nevertheless I just turned 22 a little more than a week ago and to be frank, I was rather not very pleased about getting older because until now, being an adult hasn’t been that much of the Neverland I expected it to be. As always, I was overthinking things, once more thinking about how I’m just getting older without really achieving something significant for my rear future, and how another year flew by and I just seem to run out of time to acomplish my dreams. But then Ruth B’s – Lost Boy came on shuffle while I was just sitting there, lost in my thoughts and my earphones plugged in. I haven’t listened to that song in a while yet it’s one of my favorite songs and means a lot to me. Due to this song I ended up reading the actual book of Peter Pan a year ago and that’s where all the reflecting about it started. Did you know that Captain Hook represents all the hardships and struggles we would have to face as we grow older and enter adulthood? And that the crocodile that bit his hand off, that was holding his watch, is representing Hook’s childhood times being over?

He said, „Peter Pan that’s what they call me, I’ll promise that you’ll never be lonely“ and ever since that day…

Ruth B, Lost Boy

However, all this talk about Peter and his folks might sound pretty depressing but my 22nd birthday turned out to be great and I’m very greatful for all the people who I shared it with. Since it was the first birthday ever I spent away from home, I was also worried about how I would feel on the day itself but turns out that I was worried for nothing. As long as you have the right people around you, even a birthday far away from your beloved home and casualities can be unforgettable. Now this might surprise you, since I keep claiming that I’m not a people person at all in my last posts but you know, as a loner and introvert it is rather hard to explain to others what this feeling is like when you actually enjoy being by yourself but still detest the sentiment of lonliness. Maybe it’s more that I dislike being around people just to be around them, I hate small talks and talking to others just for the sake of talking without any further meaning. If you first meet me you probably won’t notice this vulnerable side of me because most of the time I’m wearing a mask, just to give people the impression they want or expect from me. The real struggle is to find people I feel emotionally connected enough to share this susceptible side of mine, people that I actually feel comfortable around and are able to break my walls down, people that I can actually call my friends…hence the feeling of loneliness eventhough I might be surrounded by lots of people. Being like that can be emotionally very exhausting but when you finally find the persons that are able to break through that barrier of yours as well as just accepting you with all the demons you are carrying, it feels like a warm homecoming. I imagine it to be like how Peter must have felt when he found his lost boys and how they must have felt when they found Peter.

So this past few weeks I think I can say that after a rough start here in Seoul, I have found people that I gladly call my friends. It took me a while, quite a while, but I believe that the time that it took was totally worth it. I have to admit that there were times where I strongly questioned my own decision of coming to Korea and where I missed home more than I could describe in words. I struggled a lot and it definitely was hard and the more I struggled the more I just wanted to be alone and only spend my time on my own. Luckily Peter Pan came soon enough and I found my kind of lost boys in Seoul. Never would I have thought that bonding with people was the key to making my life more comfortable but happily I had people by my side, without really realizing it, who showed me the good and precious side of socialising. Thanks to them I’m enjoying every single day that I get to spend here now and I guess spending my 22nd birthday with all the people here that I cherrish made me realize that growing up might be exhausting and hard, but thinking about it too much won’t make it any better either because time won’t stop and will overtake us someday if we don’t accept it. It made me comprehend a little better that running away from „getting older“ and facing responsibilities makes everything just worse but if I face it, I don’t have to do it alone, fighting against Captain Hook with Peter and the lost boys by your side can actually be one hell of an adventure.

Peter Pan, Tinkerbell, Wendy Darling even Captain Hook, you are my perfect story book

Ruth B, Lost Boy

To sum things up, I made some great friends here in Seoul who I cherrish a lot and that I hope to make even more unforgettable memories with. I’m very greatful to all of them. Thinking back to the first few weeks here with all the hardships and inner turmoil I went through seems so irrelevant now, all those things seem so small now and this outcome is definitely not due to myself. I’m very thankful to all the people, not just the ones here, that never let go of me and always stay by my side even when I’m being diffcult to handle with, people that support me, even if I’m miles appart from them, people that, whatever may come, are ready to face Captain Hook with me. I guess this post turned out to be, eventhough that wasn’t my first intention when I started writting it (as always ^^) dedicated to all the persons that I care about; I’m fine, and I’m enjoying every single day that I get to spend here. I had a very nice birthday and I feel a little more like 22 now. My life is still not perfect, I still miss my bed and swiss food, some things still make my blood boil because they just don’t work eventhough it would be so simple, but at least I found my lost boys now and maybe I’m coming a little closer, step by step, to my Neverland.

So, I guess that was it for today’s post and at this point I’d like to add that I’m sorry that it took me so long to update. Life has been kinda hectic this past few days and weeks but I’m trying my best to write as much as possible, and hopefully you could get another insight into what is going on in my life at the moment. However I hope you liked my post, eventhough it drifted a little away from my actual intentions and it might sound like a bunch of confusing thoughts that I tried to bring to words. Alright, I’m calling it quits now for good because if you saw my local time right now you’d probably scold me a lot and force me to go to bed^^. With this said I wish you a good night and enjoy the rest of the weekend. Thanks for reading and dream of Peter and Neverland.

Neverland is home to lost boys like me and lost boys like me are free.

Ruth B – Lost Boys

0 Kommentare


„Bad scene, sixty thousand degrees, don’t know what you want from me. We all speak but nobody thinks, and I’m looking for a way to leave.“

Chrissy Costanza, The Fuss

Guess the time has finally come to write about the thing I’ve been anticipating the most to write about. I always enjoy sharing my thoughts about songs and music with others and love having long discussions about deep lyrics and different artists, therefore I created the rubrics „Talking Music“ and „Weekly Song Recommendation“. Basically, I will share my thoughts about different artists, albums and songs, make reviews and challenge you to give music a chance to talk to you in a different way than you are used to, to listen beyond the melody and the lyrics.

Today I won’t be talking about a specific song but will try to bring you one of my favorite bands closer. As I already teased in my last post, I finally had the chance to see them live a few weeks ago and the experience was just unforgettable, but we’ll come to this later on ;). So, the band is called Against The Current and consists of three members; Chrissy, the lead vocalist, Dan, he plays the guitar and Will, the drummer. 


To begin with, I think I have to go way back in time, just to give you a brief insight on how much this band actually means to me. You know, there’s this one label called Fueled By Ramen, in my opinion the coolest label on earth, since so many bands and artists that I like and admire, such as Paramore, One Ok Rock, Panic At The Disco, Fall Out Boy and more, are signed under Fueled By Ramen without me even knowing it was their label when I got into them. Now, where’s the reference to Against The Current? Well…I got to know them on Youtube, because they used to cover songs and worked with Kurt Schneider, and back then Kurt was (still is) very popular. So, I’ve been following ATC basically since their beginning, and they soon released their first EP which they released on their own without being signed to any labels. One day they posted a picture on Instagram, about 3 years ago, with them signing a contract with Fueled By Ramen. Back then I couldn’t believe it and it only confirmed that Fueled By Ramen is indeed the coolest label in the world. For those who know me a little better, they probably know that Paramore is my favorite band of all time, and Against The Current being signed to the same label as them made me so proud of them and means a lot to me. I’ve always seen them as a junior version of Paramore since they have the same constellation and make sort of the same kind of music and I’m sure if they keep going like this they will one day be as big as Paramore. Thus far about my love for Fueled By Ramen^^. 

Not one of their debut covers nor a Kurt Schneider one, but it’s my favorite cover they ever….enjoy! 

Anyways, as they got more popular they released more and more self-written music and soon their debut album followed. They also toured around the world and had stops in more and more cities but whenever they stopped in Switzerland, there always was something that hindered me from going. And in September this year they released their second album „Past Lives“, along with that they also announced their tour dates for their „Past Lives“ tour, and yes, they did go to Europe, but not to Switzerland. I must admit that I was very frustrated, since I finally would have had the time to go see them. But soon enough they announced their Asian tour dates and for once I had a little more luck than usual and happened to be in Seoul when they also would.

The head single „Strangers Again“ of their new album

„We drive away, luckier than that Lucky Strike hanging in-between your teeth“ 

Chrissy Costanza, I Like The Way

To be honest with you,I have never really been a lucky person. Never won at lucky draws, always miss the free things they distribute at the station back in St. Gallen and when someone special or important to me is in town you can be certain that I’ll probably be on the other side of the world at that time, so yeah, kinda not expecting much from the universe concerning my luck ^^.  Anyways, as soon as I got to know about ATC having a concert in Seoul I immediately tried to get tickets, but somehow (and I really still have no clue why) it wouldn’t work. I tried it several times on different days, but it just didn’t work and I’m not gonna lie, I started to think that the universe just didn’t want me to meet Against The Current. Anyhow, by the time around one or two weeks before the concert I was going through my timeline on Twitter and saw one of Chrissy’s tweet saying how excited she was to be back in Asia…great, really great. But then I thought if I already have nothing left to lose I might as well tweet Chrissy and ask her how I could get a ticket for the show, with actually no expectation in her replying to me. I did post a tweet that night and went to sleep right after. I’m telling you, waking up to a Twitter notification from Chrissy, while I have already forgotten about the tweet itself, isn’t something I thought would affect me that much, but it did. I would’ve never thought, not in a million dreams, that Chrissy would actually see my tweet and respond to me, definitely something I would remember for a long time and I dare to say that for once I was lucky…kinda.  Perhaps I complained so much that the universe felt sorry for me and decided to be a little more generous with me, because Chrissy’s answer was only the beginning of my lucky streak. I ended up getting a ticket and on the day of the concert I got to casually meet Will in front of the venue and had a small talk with him while all the other fans that were standing in line for the same reason as me, didn’t notice him at all, and I’m still wondering why. Furthermore, the band replied to me several times on Instagram, I got to catch one of Will’s drumsticks at the end of the show and I met Chrissy later on and we took a group photo. I don’t think I have ever been this lucky in my entire life hence I’m a little scared I might have used up all my luck for the next…maybe 30 years haha. ^^ 

Considering that I’ve been talking and talking about the concert now you’re probably curious about how the show actually was. Well, I’m not sure I’m able to put all the emotions and excitement into words but nevertheless I’ll try to do so. I have always enjoyed going to concerts seeing my favorite artists performing live and after this one I think I can call it an official hobby of mine. Sincerely, that night was magical. I don’t know what word could describe it any better, but it was just amazing, I had so much fun and couldn’t really believe that I was finally meeting Against The Current. Although they were only four to be on stage (they had a bassist playing for them) they still managed to make all the songs sound awesome and complete. Herewith I also want to praise their technician, the sound for sure was amazing, especially the drums. As a drummer and noob-wanna-be-technician I know how hard it can be to have a perfect drum mix, but damn, you (whoever you might be^^) nailed it! I think it was the best drum sound I’ve ever heard live and was enjoying it to the fullest, just as much as I enjoyed the rest of the show.

Chrissy’s stage presence is really something else, whenever she sang I got chills and I could feel her energy all over the place. The way she moved and danced on stage just made me want to dance with her and feel the music, and her voice has always fascinated me since it’s very special and not the voice you would expect to hear when you look at her, and she didn’t disappoint me one bit with her live performance. I’ve always seen her as a mini version of Hayley Williams with her hair, her style, her voice and the songs she writes but seeing her perform live just confirmed that she really is on her way to step into Queen Hayley’s footsteps ;). As for the guys, they are usually in the background since Chrissy’s the front singer and I’m used to them being quite calm and decent, especially Dan. And yet they surprised me. They’re stage present was different from Chrissy’s which doesn’t mean it was less, in fact they were so into what they were playing that they had just as much energy as Chrissy. Especially Will, the way he played the drums was so intense that it kinda left me in awe, it was almost like he was in his own world doing what he loves and not caring about who is watching…he was feeling the music and I enjoyed watching him play the drums so much. As a musician and a drummer, watching him made me want to practice harder to be able to play like he does. The three of them did an amazing job, and to be frank, I did expect them to be good and for me to enjoy it, but not at this extent. It amazed me how comfortable they all were on stage and just showing every single one in the room that, yes,that’s what they were made for, which inspired me a lot and makes me want to work even harder and become a better musician. In short, their performance was amazing and the memory of it still lingers in my head and heart. The sound was amazing, and I will definitely see them again whenever there is an opportunity to do so. The only thing I could complain about is that they played every song with backing tracks which made the fan interactions a little less than I expected but if that’s the way they feel comfortable to play I can’t really complain about it, right? Besides I was so close to the stage that looking Chrissy in the eye was already interaction enough ;). 

As much for the concert, I think I’ve blabbered enough about it, and I might have bored you to death already, but I still want to talk a little about their music, more specifically about their latest album. Their tour’s name was Past Lives which at the same time is the title of their album. Therefore, I had the chance to hear the songs both, studio version and live version and it was pretty interesting to compare the both versions. Personally, my favorite songs from the album are The Fuss, Personal, I Like The Way and Strangers Again, but to be honest I enjoy listening to all of the 11 tracks. If I had to choose one song it would probably be The Fuss. Actually a little surprising since it’s kinda different from my usual taste, but I just love the groove and how ironic and accurate the lyrics are. As for Personal, the song is very vulnerable, and I just admire artists who can show that side of them. The lyrics are, in my opinion, very touching if you know the background and it is filled with pain and frustration but at the same time transmits hope and love. I also really like the production since the used elements are quite simple yet very effective, especially the rim click they use for both verses as a snare drum (I love rim clicks, just in case you didn’t know lol ^^). Amongst all the songs they performed, old and new, I Like The Way was my favorite. The sound was, I guess just perfect, I actually hate to say that because it always sounds fake whenever someone is telling about how perfect something was, but it really was. The drums were just…wow…and Chrissy was smiling and dancing during the whole song, so that song will forever have a special place in my heart as well. Besides the lyrics to I Like The Way are very sweet and from time to time I enjoy such lyrics. Also the message of „not wanting to settle for settling down“ is very intressting, whatever it might mean to you and whatever Chrissy was referring to ;).

Give it a listen, I’m sure there’s at least one song you’d like 🙂 

In my opinion the album reflects how much they grew not just as musician but also as persons. I think they improved a lot, musically and lyrically, in the past two and a half years they’ve been working on this album. Their previous album already was very honest but to me this record is the most genuine and vulnerable they’ve released so far, and this is what I cherish the most about music and artists in general. Although they did have a slight change in their genre I think it’s alright since as time goes by, we all grow and change as persons and so does the music we make, and it’s completely fine as long as we stay true to ourselves.

„I look around and I’m feeling like I built a prison and put myself in it“

Chrissy Costanza, Strangers Again

Wow, I wrote a lot more than I actually intended to, sorry for that, but I just had so much to say. Alright, guess it’s time to wrap it up otherwise I’ll end up writing a whole book. I hope I could bring you Against The Current a little closer and of course I hope you will give their songs a shot. If you do so, leave a comment or send me a message on any of my social medias linked below 😉 I’d love to hear about your opinions, feel free to state whatever you want 🙂 With all this said I wish you a good night and a nice weekend. Unfortunately, they didn’t play The Fuss at the concert, but they released a video just a few days after the show, so I guess they made it up for not putting the song on the setlist. Therefore: here a little gift to send you off to your weekend. Thanks for reading and see you soon 🙂  

I’m in love with the concept and their outfits
0 Kommentare

My second first S(e)oul

Two weeks…..It’s been two weeks  (almost) since I put feet on Korean soil again, but still it felt like it was my first time at Incheon Airport.  Not that everything felt foreign…I mean it did, and it probably always will in a certain way since it’s not my home town, but it felt more like unknown….like I had to rediscover everything again for my mind and soul to recognize it anew. Nevertheless I actually did expect myself to feel this way since I left Switzerland with a whole different outlook on the purpose of my stay in South Korea than the last time I came here. The farwells were a lot more painful, a lot more tears were shed and it was a lot harder to let go than the previous time. Hence with different cirrcumstances come different expectations and anticipations. So let me talk about the „second first“ impressinons I had after spending a couple of free days in this gigantic metropolis. 

How can I say, I felt both, weird and excited. The feeling of finally exiting the plane felt soothing and scary at the same time…I was glad I finally arrived in Seoul after seven months but I also just wanted to go back to my house in Switzerland where everything is familiar and comfortable, but I knew this wasn’t happening, so I also couldn’t wait to finally be roaming around those vivid streets again that I missed so much. In the meantime, while having all kinds of thoughts and overthinking everything as always, I made it through the customs and was relieved that all my luggage (which included two suitcases and a guitar) made it to Seoul safely, even after a transfer in Warsaw, and after a one hour carride from Incheon to Seoul I finally arrived at the university’s dormitory.  I won’t really get into details about the Uni’s campus and dorm in this post since I want to write another post explicitly about the university itself, so stay tuned if you want to know about Sejong University. Anyways, what I can say about my  impression after entering my room for the first time is that I didn’t like the smell and that I would have to put a lot of effort in living with other people, considering that I am NOT a people person at all….like, I really really reeeeaally enjoy being alone and living with four people in the same room is not really aproving this. But yeah, I’ll talk about this another time 😉 

Anyhow, the first week was filled with a lot of exploring, re-descovering and meeting new people since classes only started a week later. As you know now that I’m kind of loner I spent a lot of the free time I had during that week with just roaming around the streets (alone) at different places in Seoul and watching people and my surroundings. Doing this was actually quite entertaining…I was able to take pictures and to enjoy the city in a way  I hadn’t before. For the second first impression part : I really had to get used to the amount of people that live in this City. I mean, I already knew there were a lot of people in Seoul but I didn’t expect myself to be that overwhelmed by it again. There are people everywhere and at anytime, the city literally never sleeps. Eventhough I lived in Seoul for a couple months before, it still felt weird to have that many people surrounding me when I go out. 

Second thing that I had to get used to again was having K-Pop Idols‘ faces EVERYWHERE. Not that I mind, but it was so weird to see their faces at every corner again for whatever product they’re promoting or because their brithday is coming up soon. Never thought that THAT would actually be something I’d had to get used to again, but apperently it is. I mean, I listen to K-Pop and there are a few groups that I really like…so technically I should feel comfortable, especially because it’s not like it was new to me but yet it felt weird. So my second first impression of those adds was actually that it just felt awkward to be surrounded by my favorite artists ALL the time…that way that they actually feel surreal, like they are actually not real human because they are praised so much. As I’m also planning on writting a seperate post about Korea’s ways to praise their precious K-Pop Idols, I won’t get more into this either’ll just have to come back here again ;). 

Since I’m talking about the first impression I had for this time, here’s a thing…You know, Korea has a big heart for music and their music is actually a big part of their culture, hence you can almost hear music coming out of every store, restaurant, club or whatever it might be. Unlike Switzerland they are very proud of their music and mostly play K-Pop in stores rather than chart songs. (but you can still hear it from time to time…actutally more and more western music is being played by now). Since there are countless korean artists and groups out there, the music varies a lot and it’s actually like they have their own little music world. But somehow (!!!!)….somehow Seoul seems to only know two songs at the moment; Jennie’s (Blackpink) SOLO and Twice‘ Yes or Yes. Seriously…those songs are EVERYWHERE…wherever you go it’s either SOLO or Yes or Yes (pronounced in a very high-pitched voice lol ^^). When Solo was released I was still in Switzerland and I pretty much enjoyed it, but the fact that I constantly hear it kinda ruined it….and for the Twice song…yeah, it’s not really the kind of music that I listen to, so you can imagine how I feel about it being everywhere. So if you’re brave enough to give Korea’s current favorite songs a listen…DO IT ;). 

I actually like the song, but yeah…I’m kinda fed up.

Alright, now you know how I felt during the last two weeks. Meanwhile classes have started (I’m working very hard my Korean), I got to meet new people and make new friends. I am also glad to be back to where stores are open ‚till 10.00pm or even 11.00pm, because yeah…my shopping heart needs that sometimes ;). One of the best part of the last two weeks was probably the food. Yes, I do love korean food (as long as you eat actual korean food and not western food made by koreans), eventhough I already miss the salt and salty things haha, yes I love salt aswell and Korean kitchen has too less of it in my opinion. You can’t imagine how happy I was when I had the first BBQ <3. 

To wrap it up, the last two weeks were pretty intense with a lot of getting used to stuff and a new life. But it also was very intressting and a lot of fun. The highlight of it was last wednesday when I went to see one of my all time favorite bands in concert after missing them several times in Switzerland, and no, it wasn’t a K-Pop band ^^, but that day was so magical  that it deserves its very own post, because I probably could talk about it endlessly. 

Anyways, I’m doing fine here in Korea 🙂 I still have to adjust myself a little, but it has only been two weeks right? I guess you don’t have to worry about me yet since I’m still alive writting this 😉 haha just kidding. With that said I wish you all a good night. Thanks for reading my second post and taking your time for me. 

Sweet dreams! ~ Hialy

Good night everyone! 
3 Kommentare

I’m a Whalien

„Even if I sleep a shrimp’s sleep, my dreams are like that of a whale’s“

 Jung Hoseok, Whalien 52

You probably wonder what the word “Whalien” means, right? Well, I’m afraid I can’t give you the right answer to that, because there is no such thing as a definition of a Whalien, I guess we all must find our own personal meaning to it. In fact, there is one very special song out there which might help you finding the word’s purpose, I even think that’s where the word has its origin, but instead of explaining you the whole song and reviewing it, I’ll let you find out by yourself and make you build your own opinion about it.

Anyway, at this point you’re probably thinking about what a weird kid I must be to write a weird post like this as my very first entry on my weird blog (I don’t really think my blog is weird but I thought it would be less boring to have the word “weird”three times in a row instead of two, you know, writing style and stuff ^^). Guess you’re right 😉. My name is Hialy, I’m 21 years old and yeah, most of the time I can identify myself as a Whalien. I was born in Madagascar and lived there for six years, then I moved to Switzerland, to St. Gallen, a town in the east of the country. That’s also where I spent most of my life, although right now I live in Seoul, South Korea, for my music studies. This is one of the main reasons why I wanted to start blogging, since everyone wanted me to keep them updated on my new life here in Korea, thought this would be a great opportunity to do so and to discover something new. Besides, I’ve always wanted to sort of blog about my everyday life and stuff, and the circumstances just gave me the perfect reason to finally do so. However, there’s an issue I still don’t really know how to figure out, what language shall write in? I mean, most of my family speaks French, my friends and people in Switzerland speak German, and then there are my friends that speak English….*sigh* ..what to do. But yeah, I thought it would be best to write the first post in English, but who knows, I might vary on the language from time to time. 

Credits to @tobiasweinhold and @christopherseinsche

So, as you might have guessed by my weird introduction and by the revelation of my studies, my biggest passion is music. Whether it be playing music, making it,producing it or just simply listening to it, I love it. What fascinates me about music is how versatile it can be with all the feelings every artist can transmit through their music and the different emotions those songs and lyrics can make me feel. I love listening to songs, analyze them and to agonize over them because it makes me think about life, love, faith, purposes and all kind of things. Yes, I do “like” overthinking about songs (about everything in life actually) that have deep lyrics, and yes, that Whalien song is one of those songs I spent a lot of time thinking about. Its name is “Whalien 52” and seven boys sing about their sorrow, their worries and their struggle of being a Whalien, but they keep swimming despite having this loneliness eating them up in the wide sea of life surrounded by superficial people. Since I already told you that I will let you explore it on your own, I won’t get any deeper and will stop right here. The last thing you probably should know about; there’s a whale species out there that sings/speaks/communicates at a low frequency of 52 Hz (which is very low), and all the other whale’s frequencies are much higher so…

„I go towards my future, that blue beach and believe in my hertz“

Jeon Jungkook, Whalien 52

And with that I’m calling it a quit. I hope I didn’t confuse you too much with that mess of a text I wrote. I just thought it would be more interesting, for the people who don’t know me yet, to create your own image of me, and for those who already do know me, to let you inside my mind a little, and let a song and the title speak for me. Since I’m not that good with words, I think this song does a pretty good job in describing my personality and the way I think, because it’s a very sorrowful song yet very hopeful. Alright, I think that’s really it for now, I hope you enjoyed it and appreciate the song just as much as I do.

“This sea is too deep, still I’m lucky, because even if I cry no one would know…I’m a Whalien”

Kim Namjoon, Whalien 52

With these means…. good night and sweet dreams!